Jumbled Brain Leaves me Feeling Like a Chaotic Person

Being a person who desires is to live a balanced life, I have found my jumbled brain leaves me feeling like a chaotic person.

1. Basketball season is over, except no one told anyone in my house. I need a tape recorder that replays “don’t bounce the ball in the house” over and over again. Some leagues are still finishing up, others are about to begin in March. Calgon….

2. Despite my sports loving family, I seem to be the only one who is enjoys watching the Olympics. I did get my husband to watch figure skating with me, it is the small victories I live for.

3. God is doing a mighty work in other countries, people are crying out to him in serious need, yet he listens to my daily grumblings. Why? I stand in awe.

4. Middle child for sale. Ok kidding.. kind of… I think middle children teach you that what works on one will NOT work on another child. Just as soon as we overcome major hurdles with one child another hurdle begins. Some times I longingly look at parents with one child, but then I am reminded many times that is not their choice and I am blessed beyond measure.

5. I miss my family. Sometimes I just wish I could go hang out with Mom—sometimes she is the only one who understands—praise God for technology.

6. I am feeling a bit stressed by the amount of GREAT books on my nightstand. I need to take a weekend off to read.

7. We are attending our first meeting for high school for my middle child, who is currently in 8th.

8. There should be some law that a Mother can not turn 40 in the same year her oldest becomes 16 and drives while her middle enters high school. Seriously how much can one woman’s heart take ;) .

9. If you walked into my house right now you could not see my couch from all the unfolded laundry piled up. Another casualty of various meetings and basketball practices.

10. God loves my chaotic self and meets me right where I am. So I sit here grateful for everything he brings into my life, even my middle child. ;)

Proverbs 31 woman with a crooked halo.

maxine This is sure how I feel lately. Some days my brain feels like it is going to explode. Having three kids in three different schools, means three times the paperwork, three different schedules, and three times the clutter in my house. Then we have football schedule (x3), what day am I suppose to bring the snack and juice again? And sometimes if I am real lucky two different sporting events overlap. At the beginning of this month, my two older boys were finishing up basketball while football had already begun. Then add to the mix two boys in braces, one boy in tutoring, tons of homework due, laundry, dirty house, etc…

Calgon take me away.

I had one mother look at me and ask, “Laurel how do you do it all with these three boys?” First of all I feel guilty because I only have three, I have a girlfriend who has 10 kids and Mothering seems to be her spiritual gift. I really wanted to respond, well we all pitch in at home so every thing is completed and I cook healthy meals for my family despite our schedule.
Entering Magic Kingdom

In reality I looked at her and said, “I really don’t know, all I know is my house is a mess and I fed my kids healthy mac and cheese as we ran out the door. By the way I love visitors, but when you come to sit down just move the piles of laundry on the couch to your side.” I have given up trying to have the “perfect home,” my friend of 10 kids taught me that. But I still feel like I fail the Proverbs 31 woman terribly.

Now don’t preach to me about organization, because I have read tons of books about it and I have improved, but I have not arrived. I love my google calendar that emails me appointment reminders. And I do try to plan meals every two weeks, but our family is famous for throwing dinner plans out because plans change.

Somewhere in the mix I read tons of books — travel to far away places— for review; I write — my creative outlet — for hire on the side, and at least once a week I try to catch up on laundry and house cleaning. Why do people never show up on those days? Oh yeah, and I blog.

So how do I do it?

* I gave up perfection.

* I plan ahead to the best of my ability but know plans change.

* Someone may appear to do things better than me (motherhood, housekeeping, etc..) but I know I am doing the best I can.

* I do something I enjoy at least once a week (like blog, read, or work on my writing).

* But most of all I place God first and give up the guilt of not being the perfect Proverbs 31 woman.

I know I will miss these crazy days, but for right now I am relying heavily on God’s guidance and peace.

I think Zephaniah 3:17 is my favorite life verse because God reminds me he will save me, when I go spinning off track, he will quiet me when craziness seems to swirl around me, but most of all (and despite all of my failures) he will rejoice over me.

“The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.”~ Zephaniah 3:17

So what about you? How do you survive being a mother, a grandmother, a primary care giver?

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