It is now only Wednesday and I am crying “uncle” to the Lord. It seems since Saturday it has been one thing after another. My husband came home sick from his trip to San Antonio. Due to losing his voice I had to try to find new ways to understanding the Main Male in my house.
Then the Lord gives me a lesson in loving people even when you don’t feel like it. The Lord calls us to Love our enemies. Personally I believe it is sometimes easier to love your enemies rather than some of the people in your inner circle. For example family, extended family or friends? God has placed non-Christians in my inner circle, but the sad thing is sometimes they see my worst. I seem to blow my Christian witness often. I beat myself up afterwards but God’s grace covers me. I keep telling myself it will be better, “I will be stronger.” But Satan knows how to push my buttons. It is the cycle where God reminds me it is not by my power but HIS that I can be a witness for Him.
Then I won worst mother of the year award today. My oldest son is experiencing his first taste of high school finals. Because my husband is the sharing kind, he shared his sickness with my older son. My son woke up not feeling well, but he had the MOST important final today. I did what any bad mother would do, I had him take two Tylenol and said “don’t call me until your two tests are over.” (he did not have a fever at this time, only felt yucky) Well bless his heart, he lasted all day , minus the last 30 minutes of school. I came and picked him up and put him to bed. Now he has a fever of 102. Like I said, “worst mother of the year.”
Then today nothing could go right at work. There were missing files, miscommunications, not being able to give items my best….it is the little things that drive me batty.
I want to run to the Lord and complain, and then I read this and this and read daily about this, and I wonder why I am so blessed. I praise God that I can bring these other people before the Him. This is why I love blogging. I can have a day, where I want to pull my covers up over my head, instead the Lord widens my view and whispers….
“pray for my people.”
Praying for you tonight, asking God to help you put this day to rest in your heart and soul. I hope you get a great nights rest, and a new and beautiful start for tomorrow. Praying for you.
Love and Hugs, Laurie in Ca.
Praying for a fresh perspective and NO GUILT. Praying the Enemy loses his foothold and is totally unable to discourage you. And praying the men in your life feel better soon!
Oh Lori, I’m praying for you. I know there are those days when nothing seems to go right. I loved how you posted about perspective by contrasting the messages of those other bloggers. When I’m feeling really down, I try to remember that many others have it much worse.
As far as your Christian witness is concerned, I completely understand that. We are under much scrutiny from non Christians because we’ve taken a stand. And believe me, my friend, I fall flat on my face much too often. I’m so thankful for God’s grace and forgiveness. I also try to learn from it and pray for guidance and to be able to forgive others and also myself.
Having my daily quiet time is vital because then I begin my day in the presence of my Lord, it focuses me on what’s most important. A big hug to you, my friend.
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Oh, Lori.. you don’t know how I needed to read this today! I, too, feel a great need to yell “Uncle!”…. and it’s primarily over the little things. The little things that I can’t control. How thankful I am that the Lord is slowly reminding this morning that those things aren’t what is the most important and showing of all the things for which I have to be thankful!
I’ll be praying for you today!
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I don’t think that’s going to get you the worst mother of the year award. Sorry. You didn’t send him to school with the fever. As they get older, they’ll find themselves in situations where they have to push on even when they’re not feeling well. He might have been able to make up the test at a later date, true. But I think you did fine, sending him to school. Now he can recuperate without that hanging over his head.
When you do get the award for doing some other bad-mom thing, I’m sure I’ll be the one handing you the crown. I’ve been wearing it for 16 years.
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So many of us totally understand as we struggle with these very issues. Our circumstances seem to get the best of us and our mind speaks loudly with guilt over what we did or didn’t do. Thank God for His mercies which are new every day and that He puts His comfort in our hearts and brings out the awareness that He truly is in control. It is His Presence healing our pain and frustration showing us His mercy and blessings.
Oh and for the worst mother award, I’m in the competition. Here in Florida, it hardly ever gets cold, but this morning, halfway to school, my youngest son (7), tells me he forgot his jacket. As I looked at the thermometer, it was 31 degrees! And we were too late to turn back and get it. Way to go mom!
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Facing the struggles we face are hard to do, especially when Satan knows all the right buttons to push. Praying for you, Lori. *Hugs* Laurie Ann
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I have realized last week how truly blessed I am (and was last year). I have seen the pain some people have gone through (and still are) — I am ashamed of how I handled last year – I wanted to be in control – taking matter in my own hands and ‘fix’ stuff…There are so many people in my circle that surely have endured much more pain than I did…But like you said – we sometimes fail in giving witness. We just can’t Satan take the upper hand on our failures, but by His grace minister to others…I don’t even know if my comment makes any sense…I guess I am rambling…
Thank you for sharing your heart with us…And you are NOT the worst mother in the world, because that title went to me…
sis, i love reading your posts and your transparent heart! i know there are so many people out there that read what you write and suddenly realize they are normal… in motherhood, marriage, walk with the Lord and life in general! You so encourage me
Our God is so good… and what a gift to be able to communicate with each other from a far through this this thing… blogging 
Love you!